I think the time off from school over this summer has been really getting to me in the baby wanting department. This morning I snuck in and kissed Logan before my run and his breath smelled like baby breath which is odd since he usually has the worst morning breath. It brought back so many memories and made my heart ache to cuddle with another little baby. Lance and I have discussed the issue which we had aggreed on trying next February since that would give me 3 months after I graduate nursing till I had another, but Lance says it just isn't going to happen.
He is the logical thinker of the two of us, and he doesn't want to have another until we have an actual house and I have a steady job. Damn, good argument huh? I wanted Logan and the baby to be close but even if we tried next year they would be 5 years apart, so I guess whats another year.
Not being in school for the summer is a cruel break and makes me want to move on with life but I know life stops once I go back, its just to busy. Meanwhile we are sweating buckets since our renters lease ends in December and we don't think they will renew, which puts us with rent and mortgage. Someone else in our same condo complex listed theirs for $9,000 less then what we bought ours for YIKES! If we sold in December we are going to end up paying :( stupid economy! If I was able to work full time we could hold both places for awhile but there is no way I can since I don't get another break (like this summer) till I graduate.
Can you blame me for wanting another, he is just so sweet!!!So thats my worries right now. School is harder then I thought when you have to put your life on hold.
3 comments:
Hang in there Lindee, on the baby issue, I know EXACTLY how you feel! Sounds like Lance has such similar arguments on the issue that Sean does!
Ooooooohhhhhh now you're making me cry!!!!!
Tell Lance you can have a baby now and I will babysit him/her until you're all done!
I'm brilliant.
I hear you. I want a 5th so bad!!! The one thing I will say is that there is no such thing as PERFECT timing with kids. There will always be something holding you back. Sometimes you have to just go for it...but you have to have your husband be in agreement too.
I think God allowed me to be infertile because I'm so emotional I'd probably be one of those women who gets pregnant and tries to tell her husband "I don't know what happened? I was taking the pill!"
But if I went to have a baby now my hubby would notice the missing $35,000 from our bank account and the drawer full of needles! LOL
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